I don’t make friends easily and I have always had trouble spending time with more than one person at a time. I had one main friend from 4th grade until I got married the first time. Yes, I talked to a few other people but I was not the kind of girl that wanted to be invited to all the birthday parties. I was the girl who was perfectly content laying out in the yard alone looking at the stars at night and going of on long walks or bike rides alone during the day. Some of my friends and family members get annoyed at my one person at a time preference but it works for me. Yes, I have been known to show up at a social event from time to time but if I don’t have a job to do while I am there I am pretty much lost.

In the past two weeks I have lost 6 dear friends. These were 6 people that I bonded with and 6 people that understood me and accepted me for how I am. These were 6 people who took time to spend quality time alone with me. I am not going to apologize for how I am I am just letting you know that I am just more comfortable being around one person at a time.

During this time of grieving I have been focusing on flowers and bugs and self care as well as being grateful for friends who love me and care.

The tree in the above photo was something I saw today while walking through a garden. The bark was rough yet beautiful while serving as a host for many it was slowly being damaged.